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Assalamualaikum and hello, o awesome readers!

I guess I'm pretty cool person. I likes be positive, helping others, writing and exploring.  Also a fan of happy ending. Even life is too serious as it is. This blog i called as my second heart. Everything with Allah blessing, i'll share those awesome moments in my life. Overall i think is a lot about my family. 'Cause i love them....LOL.

Thanks for all your support! It means a lot. Anyway, welcome to my life.

Friday, December 30, 2016

Flashback 2016

Assalamualaikum,

Rasanya banyak blog will post about counting days ke tahun 2017.
And menggembalikan era zaman kegemilangan start January sampai la ni.
For me, i don't think i will remember all what i am doing and so ever.
My memory space are limited.
Banyak benda lain nak kena ingat.
Sorry.


But, whatever it is... i still wanna do it too.
So, the two common questions for this entries post are did all my plans for 2016 dah tercapai?

I can said, not all guys.
Banyak lagi in my bucket list yang major untuk dikejar.
Banyak lagi ilmu Allah nak kena belajar. 
Pahala nak kena grab.
Yela, dunia kan tempat kita collect semua tuh. Waktu nanti kena hitung kat sana, rasa worth it.
Then, kena mantapkan lagi financial part.
My most awesome umrah project still in progress....
But so far so good, im happy with my life and all the achievement.
Alhamdulillah.
Maybe not so perfect. But I'm ok. Dayung sikit-sikit.

And what's my plan for 2017?

Main part, Insyaallah, harapkan bless from Allah untuk tunai umrah dalam tahun ni.
Sangat mengharap dipermudahkan segalanya.
Aamin.
And hidup everyday yang dilalui sentiasa buat benda yang baik at least.
More volunteered projects.
Update more about my emergency fund. And retirement scheme.
Yang sikit terabai. Hohohoo...
Attend my sister punya wedding.
And, doa for my jodoh juga. Sebab it's my turn. 
Seram pon ada.
My prince charming ni sesat mana dah, tak tahulah kita.

Then, tu jela my short stories yang boleh di share about flashback things.
Tak tahu nak taip apa dah.
And i hope you all have a best happy ending for this year.
And dearest happiest day in next 2017.
With lots from His blessing.
Always. And forever. 

Welcome 2017!
Please be awesome to me.
= )

Thursday, December 29, 2016

YES Mood Republik Festival 2016

Assalamualaikum.

Last weekend, masa ramai orang busy celebrating Krismas.
Me after post call pagi tuh, terus cabut dengan Uber and meet my friend, Farah, kat Ampang Park and heading to PWTC.
Shopping time for YES Mood Republik Festival 2016.
Wuhuuu!

Masa time sampai, kami daftar dulu. And teman dia breakfast.
After that, que untuk masuk.
First thing first, kami serbu goodies bag dulu.
Sebeb nih limited kan.
So, grab la benda free-free nih kan.
We got a shirt with Mood Republik logo.
Oh key, nice... even i still aspect dapat free shawal AJ ke like before.
Anyway, thanks Mood Republic.

And after that tengah nak pilih-pilih, dapat free mee goreng.
Nih sponsored by some company. Lupa nama dia apa.
Then, jalan-jalan lagi.
Semangat nak collect benda free. Hahhahhah...
Lol.

Overall, i bought two items from Losravelda.
First time dengar this brand and i like all their design.
And with this two items, I just spent RM 100.00 sahaja.
Murah gila kan?
And with that i got free a jubah!
Pembeli terawal diorang katanya.
Million thanks la weh.

This long Kebaya, i purchase terus terang, Satu rm 50.00...
Memang tersangat la murahnya.
Just kain dia je bit long. Takpe, boleh adjust kan.

Yang ni, I purcahse, satu Rm 50.00 gak.
So campur dua. Just paid rm 100.00...
Memang sangat murah and still gojes. Macam biasa kain bawah still meleret panjang.
Nak kata this design dah out of fashion. Peduli apa.
As long as we confortable with this baju and make us confident as Muslimah.
Keep your head up and proud of your queen title guys!

Nih la yang i got for free!
As usual, bawah memang meleret.
Bila nak bawak gi potong tu, tak tahulah bila.
Hhehhehe...

And, i also beli one set of baju kurung modern from Leia.fjura design.
A salmon like coklat colour...
Sangat selesa and cool.
Satu just, rm 50.00 oh key!
Hohohooo...
Sorry no picture.

And other than baju, i bought some keronsang.
20 pieces for only Rm10.00...
Walawei, can I suggest for Mood Republic keep this sale like everyday?
= )

And a small triangle cake from, lupa apa nama kedainya.
But its a cake combined with ice cream flavour.
Sangat sedap, but have to keep in tempat yang sejuk.
Tak sabar nak makan.

From i spent semua nih, my friend only belanja a set of Warda yang price dia, RM 70,00..
A colour yang i chooose for her.
Sangat nice and looks cool.
I want to buy also, but after think that i prefer my set baju kurung from Leia, fjura...
I sanggup cancel.

And as mengenang jasa dia, i treat her at Bakar station at Sunway Putra mall.
Their fish cencaru set. So nice, so amazing and so cukup rasa dengan semua rempah.
Just cuma kena tunggu lama lah.
Makanan sedap tak pe, kami sanggup. Berbaloi.
Just if lama sangat, try update dengan diorang punya waiter okey.

And i also sempat go to Direst sport fair sale.
Kat ground floor.
I grab their shoe bag from Slazenger.
Normal price Rm 39.90 and they sold for Rm 19.00,
Murah kan, And time nak bayar, i just paid for only Rm 15.00!!!!
Make me smile lah semua nih.
Beli ni, yang not i'm gonna use for shoes actually. Nak guna for my baju untuk travel. Hahahhaa...
So happy, sebab so murah.

And that's how year end sale affect me guys.
I donno if i can tahan until next year dengan dugaan yang lan-lain.
But i thin i can because i have to work.
And seems we are busy, and my new year pon oncall.
So, keep save, keep it real.
Peace.

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Selamat kembali ke sekolah guys

Assalamualaikum.



Dah nak 2017, so sekolah dah start nak mula.
Mesti excited la si Ziqa and si Qistina.
Budak nak daftar standard One.
Meriah la mulutnya pot pet, pot pet.
Tak tahulah diorang will cry or not masa orientation nanti.
Hhahahha....

And, untuk si Apiz and Adam, They will dafter untk kindergarten plak.
Rasa Adam mesti cool abes.
Sebab dia emtionless.
Aiz ni, manja sikit.
Not sure, but physically dia keras.
Kasar kata orang tuh.

And yang kecik teno-et, si Aishah, Ans and Peah just dok rumah diam-diam jela.
Berderet anak sedara kan...
Perangai pon macam-macam.

Anyway, tak dapat teman diorang masuk sekolah.
Job calling.
But, ada my younger sister, my emak and ayah untuk teman sebab my sister kerja.
Alhamdulillah,
Ada gak peneman.
Kan.

Hope diorang belajar rajin-rajin and keep the cool side with them.
Ridu sama zaman sekolah.
Rindu my kawan-kawan sekolah dulu.
How fast time flies!

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Pantai lagi!

Oh kay, as i said before... kami se-family memang gila pantai.
Whatever it is season yang tak boleh gi ker...
Kami redah jer.
So, here photo yang terbaru. Mereka pergi la pantai... without me, of course.
And here, Peah joining too.
Donno what style she means in this photo. But, as long she happy... we all happy.
BAudak-budak ni lagilah happy.
Si Ziqa and si Apiz dah syok main air la tuh.
Such a beautiful momets. Rindu korang semua!!!

Monday, December 26, 2016

Solat subuh tiga rakaat

Assalamualaikum.

Pada hari jumaat yang lepas, berkesempatan untuk menunaikan solat Subuh berjemaah.
Alhamdulillah.
Pagi itu, imam buat tiga rakaat.
After solat... masih terpinga-pinga.
Should i do another Subuh prayer again or not?
Hurm....

On the way nak pergi tempat kerja, gi la Googling ni semua.
Risau gak.
So, after web ke web yang lain.
Barulah tahu apa sebenarnya yang berlaku.
Ya Allah, cetek ilmu lagi rupanya. Insaf... insaf...

Just get in yang imam tu buat sujud tilawah pada rakaat pertama.
Maksudnya, imam tu baca ayat Quran yang ada tanda... untuk sujud mengakui kebesaran Allah is the Creator.
Rakaat pertama tu dia takde rukuk, duduk antara dua sujud or salam ke apa.
After sujud tu, berdiri balik then inam sambubg baca ayat Quran.
Pastu, buat solat subuh macam biasa.
Niat tetap sama. Solat subuh mengikut imam kerana Allah Taala.
Perkara ini selalu mereka buat in subuh jumaat.
In certain tempat jela practice.
So if nak rasa betapa bestnya and amazing... gi la rajin-rajin solat subuh hari jumaat kat masjid or surau berdekatan.
Banyak pahala boleh grab.
Hanya bergantung pada daya usaha kita nak kejarnya or not.
Tepuk dada tanya iman.

Dulu, set jam bangun pukul 6.10pagi...
Sekarang bila start rajin gi solat jemaah, jam setting tukar kol 5.15pagi...
Sebab nak bersiap skali plus pack barang untuk kerja terus.
First main reason kenapa kena tidur awai. Hahahaaa.
Ini part best.

Tak rasa terbeban or what dengan aoa yang berlaku?
Rasa ok, ok jer.
Sebab lately, i like to wake up early.
Rasa masa tu banyak sikit Allah bagi.
Positive my mind, get a fresh air before anyone else.
And do good things.
Only if I'm too tired, then my mood will spoiled all of it's.
Ups.


I pray Allah bless me, in every moves i took.
And heaven is my only mission.
And i want you be my neighborhoods.
So, together we haunt pahala banyak-banyak ohkey...
= )

Saturday, December 24, 2016

What i learnt from volunteer things

Assalamualaikum,


This so teary stories came from when i'm just finished my first kids volunteer attempt.
The gap between handling an adult and kids things are so big.
Your feeling and their feeling are light earth and the stars.
Which means, 
I can still stand still in this earth but they still hoping upon a star.
...

Previously, i more focus on teenager or an adult part.
But, this time i'm face to face with the kids.
Children who are trying to make a small space alone may be in this world to growing up.
Their background stories more tragic,
So tragic until makes them to have no feeling.
Besides that innocent face.

Because sort of this, why i want to be a volunteer.
If not in money things sometime,
May a time they needed for you to hear what they feel.
To borrow your shoulder.
A hug too..
To stop the tears.
Even.

My 'lil man. So handsome, i believe in future. But... He deaf and can't speak.
May Allah bless his life.
They not strong as you think they are, because we're human.
I just helping what i can do.
Even no one one day will appreciate my not so small effort.
I will continues do this.

I have a dream.
That one fine day, when i have kids... they will be BFF with this kind of things.
It's a must by the way.
No shame or standard count.
Your kids also should duh.
Make their know the real life is. 
Make they learnt how to survival like them.

Please, discarded what my husband will said later.
He better follow me, if not... i know what to do.
= )
LOL.

Sometimes Creator give us more than we have,
Be grateful by looking down for what others don't.
Help them.
Maybe a micro, perhaps.
Not gonna harm.

Friday, December 23, 2016

My new harta karun

Assalamualaikum,

Seperti mana yang dijanjikan, this post tentang what i bought from big bad wolf Mines 2016.
So, my total books are dua belas, and net price, Rm 103.00
Big clap for me please. 
Not exceed from my bajet.
Hehehee... suka tau.

Here i want to share some pengalaman and awesome tips for korang.
First. Make sure eat dulu before go here. Because after masuk pintu gerbang tu, rasa rugi if kena break between your exploring, kan.
And also prepare a bottle of mineral water at least.
Or may some gula-gula perhaps.
Prevent hypo!
= )

And for someone yang used public transport, I suggest you all kaji dulu before heading there.
Can check out some webs like...
This site, click here. Second trip big bad wolf.
Anyway, added from what she wrote, the Heritage hotel is inside that building. 
But you just passed that hotel through the side of it. And few walks you are at the back of the building and see the tunnel or boat waiting area.
This really helped me untuk bab kat mana nak mencilok after turun Ktm Serdang.
Thanks duh.

And tips lain adalah tolonglah guna trolley or basket yang disediakan. Even korang aspect tak akan beli banyak ke apa.
Just to maintain your body posture.
Ni penting, please also bawak any bag galas, bag belakang, own shopping bag or even a luggage to loaded your books.
Selain untuk kesenangan bersama, care for your books too. Rabak gak kalau guna plastic dik non oi.
And, when pilih-pilih tu. Please respect each other...
If rasa tak nak buku yang kita pick. Return it pada tempat asal. If still remember or give it to the dayang dayong yang jaga.
Don't mess around.
And watch out your kids too. Sesak kan.
Sometimes all the trolley and basket can hurt them too. Sebab semua mata tak tengok depan or bawah.

You will bertemu dengan macam-macam ragam manusia. So keep well your belongings guys.
May ada yang will ambil kesempatan. Just beware.
Tak ada orang yang nak kisah pasal sesama kita dah.
Semua dalam alam fantasy land.
Even some ada gak yang fight with his own books.
Jumpa tau.
Well... nerds people always weird.


Tak lupa, for someone yang looking for islamic version. They're quite limited.
Jika lucky, dapatlah jumpa 1,2...
Even dah gi diorang punya religion genre pon still limited.
Their books more to novel with different genre and kids collection.
Sebab tu bawak budak lagi best.

So, that's my tips. You're welcome babe.

I not yet distributed some books to my colleagues.
And a book for Cik Ziqa too...
I hope she will like it.
Ok, bye!

Thursday, December 22, 2016

What types of friends i truly want

Assalamualaikum.

Not gonna said that my friends now are suck.
But just some moment where, if they added some good reason for me to be there for them.
Perhaps, because...
Some are more like to be too selfish.
Some too count for what they do.
Some cannot others be more than them.
Some likes others do bullying them.
Some even do back-stab.

Why can they build good relationship between each others.
Respect own right.
Keep me live in a positive air.
Too make me feel easily to mingle around too.

And be the one who are nicer reminder.
Remind me to my Creator.
Ring a bell, cover for me may be.
I will dua for you too.

Or may be i'm just too much in asking for what i want?
Am i?
May be.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Style: Maya by Nuramirah

When this sale going on, I'm at Pahang enjoying my holiday. So, nak pecut ahad to Putrajaya after that is like a crazy thing.
Lagipon no partner nak ajak.
Maka, i just ordered online and purchase.
My first choice is not this type. But as the dealer said the one i choose is out of stock and have to wait.
I pick this one. M size, safe size, And,  blue colour!
Cannot wait nak pakai... Or i will wore in next any majlis kahwin, then i have to wait.
Maybe ya.

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

How i spent my day leave

Assalamualaikum,

Today is my day leave.
A day annual leave that i have to took with no plan.
Nada.
I'm in dilemma.
What i'm gonna to do?
After finished my late case yesterday, i still thinking what i'm gonna do with my life tomorrow.
I really, really, donno what to do.

I already clear out my bank statement, my activities schedule, and not worth it if i want to go back Johor only for a day, right.
Even i missed them so much!

Did i will just spent a day on my bed.
Sleep all day long.
Or eat my bar chocolate, or junk food and cheat on my diet?

But, this morning... i woke up around 04: 30 morning!
Amazingly.
Without any alarm.
With my messy hair, i get my phone and check out internet.
Looking through What's app, if have any message that they are free today and wanna hang out with me.
Nothing.
Disappointingly, i go to bathroom and do my routine.

Check out my clock, 05:25 am,
I think why not i pampered my self with Islamic ways. Close my soul to my Creator.
Then quickly, i get ready, and when I heard Azan ...
I pick up my Siti Khadijah telekung bag and walk to the nearest surau.
And here, I pray that Allah will bless my day.


I think that the saddest Subuh i ever had. I donno why I cried a lot that morning.
Even in my first Al Fatihah, my tears already show my feeling.
That i'm alone and miserable.
That i have lots and lots of sin.
That's I now realized how limited my time for Him.
And when I'm free now, how can I said that i have nothing to do, because He has lots of plans for me?
I can do dzikir, non stop dua, even recite Quran.
InsyaAllah.

In that time, I remember back the memories of person i lost.
My relative, my brother in law especially, Al Fatihah to him.
And these make me cried more.

Also to all the person i missed, my family.
And how my unladylike to people who are care for me.
My friends, and my colleague.
Even to the owner of this telekung.
I hope they forgive me.

And the way i wore, I must more cover, think that no person that i should please.
Yeah. Baby step it's ok.
I know Allah will help me.

And I cried to Allah that can He make my dream come true about Umrah thing.
I really want to see Kaabah face to face before i closed my eyes.
I want the feeling of only Allah and me.
I and Him.
My slow walk, with Quran in my hand.
InsyaAllah on fine day. Oh Allah.

And I pray for Aleppo.
For Allah to help innocent people there.
And my small dua for them

Now, i just finished my breakfast. I want to clean out my room.
And faster recite Quran and study it more.
I want my heart heals as it should be.
I want back my pure white soul.
Only for my Creator, my Allah.
Bless me, please.

= )

Monday, December 19, 2016

Different point of view

Assalamualaikum,

This stories happened masa tengah makan at pantry of my department.
Makan Kenny Roger's chicken, yang dah berapa hari simpannya.
Ups!
And btw, i change their sauce with my homemade sambal kicap.
Western meet traditional...
Don't blame me.
I like this way more.

So, the story began when i tengah panaskan in microwave the chicken.
And one of my colleague minta sikit.
Really i tak cakap apa-apa.
Not even care untuk balas because some reason, i'm not like him too.
And because, how can i given to him if my meals still not ready yet.
But,
My quietness, be replying with two girls yang ada dekat situ.
Mereka yang tolong jawab on behalf of me.

They said about how rude he is.
Not make his own food.
About why not he bring his own food.
About why not spent money on his own stomach.
Blah.blah.blah.
Amazingly, that guy still sat there after kena tembak bertalu-talu.
Poor him.
Sorry dude, tak boleh tolong.


And I just keep quiet and finished my food.
Niat untuk given half to him pon tak berani.
Sorry again.

As anyone know me, i tak kedekut about food.
If i have even a piece of bread... i can share to two lagi ohkey.
Not really count about food.
Because i believe ianya rezeki from Allah.
I just maybe sebagai penyampai.
For my foods. A sip or bite sudah cukup to me. Berhenti sebelum kenyang kata orang.
The more i share, the more i feel grateful.
Alhamdulillah ya Allah.
For this food goals relationship.

Pernah one night, after penat buat cases.
We took a break with some nasi goreng kampung.
As i don't really fan of late meals.
And my friend complaint she still hungry, pregnant mood duh.
I share half of mine.
She looks to me if i orang gila.
I just said she take it or i will throw away. And she accept it.
Besides i enjoy their sup kosong.
No big deal to me.

And pernah gak one day, at that time we don't have time for lunch.
I only have a chocolate bar with me, my usual standby.
And when someone offer me their balance proper foods.
I keep it, but not for me.
For my other friends who don't have even any, even a chocolate bar like me.
Not also big deal to me.
I'm life happily ever after with my chocolate bar.

I'm just the person who don't like the feeling of too full.
I felt bloated.
I trained my stomach to think of others.
Think about Syrian people contohnya.
That's why, i limit my own food.
That's why juga i can survived with bread for whole week without our makanan ruji, nasi.
I'm ok.
I'm cool.

Not like i'm not a fun person to bring for buffet or hang out.
Just believe that, in my latest dinner... i ate six plates?!
Because i know, this foods will have no end and gonna waste if no one ate them.
So, there where my beast or saka akan keluar.
Hahhaha...
Even i ate all those six plates, i still not felt full duh.
Did i forget said Bismillah?
Did i?

From all of this, even my opinion seems like different with others. Especially like people of this two girls...
I can only said, I'm not really cares duh.
As my fav quotes said.
Be kind, have no reason.
....

Kena pandai know your condition lah.
Be smart.
In the same time be generous.

And,
I will be me.
= )

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Big bad wolf Mines

Assalamualaikum,

Today i don't have any volunteered programs. So, my rancangan ialah to haunt lots of books.
I have two options sama ada untuk ke pesta buku di Pwtc or big bad wolf Mines. And i pick The mines.
At first, i thought i can go with my ex colleagues... but they already go.
And my bff pulak fall sick.
And other friends gi melancong lah and my department pon ada wat kira stock take.
Obviously, it's me and my freaking book haunter habits. Never mind.

As i really don't like merempit too far sampai sana. 
So i'm gonna using public transport and some walks.

I'm ready to rocked it with my casual attire, sport shoes, beg belakang and some shopping bag. If terbeli banyak, may be duh. Standby.
And my 'lil pack of mineral water and bread with nutella spread, some gula-gula jugak to keep me semangat terus.
Makanan tu penting okeh!
Hope everything will be alright. May Allah bless me, 'cause first time pergi sana alone.
I will gerak awal pagi to kurangkan kesesakan manusia. Hate crowded place. 
And plans untuk balik before zohor.

My main purpose adalah untuk carik any yang berkenan islamic version. Not gonna care it's in malay or English version.
Then, if sempat... some kids part. Nak bagi diorang tak tahu zaman bila.

And not forgetting, my niat untuk beli some book for the one yang belikan me gift before this, yang tak pernah balas balik.
Kejam kan.
I donno what types of book, but i know dia suka membaca. Randomly jelah. Ikhlas yang penting.
Even this book much cheaper berganda than dia punya gift, but books are like a magic.
They give you thousand thought, thousand feeling. 
Deal with it.
If may be dia tak nak, i give to orang lain. Apa susah.
If orang lain tak nak, i give to Cik Ziqa. She loves book by the way.

Kiranya, my amout target not exceed than Rm 150.00 duh. If so, bread with peanut butter spread are my best friend 'till next salary.
Even it's my fav for breakfast but not for lunch guys.
Huhuhuuu....

Or fasting just a good ideas.
Peace.


I love books, other than to know the content and take part in their journey. Buku adalah peneman the best untuk part kena tunggu-tunggu orang nih. 
Daripada dok membebel and panas hati, bek habiskan satu bab ker, kan. 
Or untuk masa travel. Tak delah layan smartphone je kan. Save battery. Good kan idea nih.
I will make sure, i have one book at least in my bag.
If not, sanggup tau tak pergi kedai terdekat semata-mata nak beli some books. Pelik tak pelik lah. Tak de buku, newspapers pon jadik.
And if I'm stuck at long case... and not scrub in. Buku sebagai tempat i killing the time.

Membaca nih get it from my parents, yang will make sure pagi-pagi everyday kat rumah will have one or two newspapers, so sesi rumah akan baca.
Still fresh in my minds, every Sunday morning... Tak ada kelas, kami perlu ikut que saper baca dulu. 
So, siapa bangun awal yang dapat. 
The one yang first baca, rasa dialah paling hebat. Tau!
My kids should have this habits duh.

So, with these i will stock balik mine untuk coming next year. Yeah...
I promise this is last one for this year guys.

Alright, too much membebel. Will update soon with my harta karun.
Bye.
Happy weekend.

Saturday, December 17, 2016

Anas dan tingkap

This 'lil boy now became his grandfather BFF.
Because he the only one yang rajin layan my ayah at his so called, office.
Cik Ziqa yang cucu sulung pon kalah. TV Korean drama are more interesting duh.
 He likes to eat, you give la apa-apa.
Even if dia dengar any sound kat dapur. Sekelip mata, dia ada depan korang. Dahsyat tak?
Dedemok la ini budak sudah.
But demok mana pon, I still love you!

Friday, December 16, 2016

Pray for humanity, Aleppo

Assalamualaikum.

Last week, after finished my book of Mencari Iman yang Hilang by Mohd Rizal Azman Riffin.
I borrowed an interesting book from my friend.
Thanks, buddy.
It's called Lelaki terakhir menangis di bumi by Musa Nuwayri.
Looks like i'm busy for another few hours.
Maybe days, two days actually.
And 'lil cried towards this book. Who cutting onion during operation?
Anyway,
I must admit that this a very good way to killing the time.

Hasil carian imej untuk mencari iman yang hilang buku
Haunted his other collection, Menjejaki jalan takwa, thanks google... because i like his writing idea.
So fantastic! So light but deep,
And so inspiring.
If you want to borrow it, my pleasure.

Hasil carian imej untuk lelaki terakhir menangis buku
My respect to you, bro! You're so young but have a very big heart.
May Allah bless you, your plans and your every moves.

And after i finished this book, Aleppo being attack uncontrolled.
When i heard about this, i just want to be alone.
Curling up in one side,
With my leg bend to my chest.
And cried.
Because,
This world become more and more scariest duh.
No humanity alive.

When they are being bomb, tried to survive, i only can cried.
I'm looks stupid duh
I actually handicap in real life.
Because i can't helping them.
I don't do anything, accept my small dua.

I donno which one is the right side. And who're starting first.
But, my first priority is can they stop all this!
Why can't they think that this all includes someone life.
Someone family.
Please have a feeling. A sense.
Even a bit, micro.
You're evil than the devil.

My heart belong to all of them , especially Muslim and Muslimah among them.
They ran away from own land.
How sad.
Pretty bad.
I felt you.

More tragic when their begging, become refugees to another country. Which not even cares about them.
No humanity, again?
And i still here cried with my small dua.

Stay strong, all of you.
May Allah bless your steps and every tears drop.
Sorry i can't help.

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Pulangkan atau tidak

Assalamualaikum,

In my previous post... ada talked about telekung siti khadijah. Korang carik la sendiri link dia.
That one of my generous friend bagi.
And I'm already used it.
Best and comfortable, duh.
Thanks again.

But, i think I should return back to the owner.
Should i or shouldn't?
Tak kisahlah orang nak cakap the word buruk suku or what if dia accept balik.
Or you think i'm crazy enough to let go telekung mahai nih.
Not gonna care about it...
Why la kan i can't think properly and still accept it after our little drama kat parking masa tu.
Huh.

Bukan sebab apa, after my first time used this. I have the feeling that I should use it frequently.
Bagilah dia continues pahala at least.
I still cool.
Few times i used, in few months. Makin lama makin pelik.
Like every after my prayer... a word dua for him is like a 'must'.
Just because i used this telekung.
I used others property, what i mean.
The weirdest feeling i have.
Pretty scary right.

When he is nothing to you...
But you pray for him to your Creator.
The man you pray that not link to your bloodline.
You bring him to talk to, the one you trust.
To the one where your final destination is.
That he is in the same level with your fav people, your family.
But he still nothing to you.
Not far from only a friend.

Not like i said i tak pernah doakan orang lain.
Always i pray the best for all muslimah in this world yang still alive and yang tujuh kaki bawah.
But,
If you want to know, the time when i make a dua.
I make a special one for each yang i remember...
I truly pray for that person life, together with their family and kesejahteraan luar dan dalam.
And for my relationship with them too.
Then, that person includes in this part of special secara tak langsung.
Don't you think... the thought of all of this is too personal?
Just because of this telekung.
...

Memula... i just. Ok never mind. Biasalah, just dua jela. No big deal.
Normal what to dua untuk someone.
Lama kelamaan tak kisah biasalah. Normal routine. Dapat pahala gak doakan untuk orang lain.
Tapi actually, it's...
Rasa awkward.

Or, i thought...  why not after i wash nicely... When i return back, he can give it to someone else.
Or derma to any masjid.
Where his pahala will berterusan.
Pada setiap penggunaannya.
Or i will just keep it?
... urgh! No comment. I have talk to him lah.
Bye.

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Cerita air kopi

Assalamualaikum,

Jikalau korang nak tahu, antara air putih yang clear tak de rasa tu compare dengan air-air lain yang macam-macam kaler.
I better choose air putih.
Bukanlah categories maintain sihat. Bajet cool or what are kan,
Tapi, I'm the one yang tak pandai buat semua jenis air tu.
Serious!
Not a coffee, bit for tea maybe.
Skill zero for all of this.
That's why, buat per penat-penat kan... minum jela air sedia ada. Tak payah bancuh segala.
= )

Gila tak gila lah.
I will make sure my partner tak a fan pada benda-benda camni semua.
Pada mertuaku in future, jgn nyesal tak reject awal-awal dulu.
Ups!

So, baru-baru ni... sempat la terjah gi umah atok kat Segamat.
Tapi dia sebenarnya nenek.
Kitaorang panggil dia atok.
Dan dia perempuan.
Whatever.
Nasib malam tu sampai, atoknya tak terkezut dengan kemunculan cucu dia yang entah dia ingat ke tak.
Hahahaaa...

Anyway, disebabkan dah dok kawasan kampong.
So, malam tu gak wasap memainkan peranan untuk cilok resepi cara buat air kopi obviously.
I need all that ASAP.
Before that, Google gak sekali. Sempat menyempat lah kan.
Mekasih pada yang sudi share tips and step by step...
Korang memang ohsem.
Campur aduk resepi korang bagi. Peneng lah.
Paling best ada di sohnya ikut bajet sendirik.
Kalo dah i'm not the one yang minum itu semua.
And bab rasa pon tak tahu.
Nak bajet apanya?
Kang jadik air laici, my fav tu.
Boleh gitu....

I still can smell it.
But not gonna drink it.
Not even a sip duh.
Termasuklah nescafe and the gang.
Tea, still boleh consider sikit-sikit.

P/s: Nasib tanya diorang sebab masa time google tu, dia ada state pasal ada rasa masin-masin. Then consider nak letak garam secubit. Diorang replied, merapu. Wtf!

Atok yang kerjanya suka dok tepi pintu dan tengok moto kereta lalu lalang.
I feel you, atok.
When where growing up, we often forget that they are also growing old... Dah,dah. Gih la korang balik jenguk mak ayah. Tepon ke jika tak dapat balik. Yer...

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Mereka dan pantai

Assalamualaikum.

As my hometown dekat dengan Desaru.
All that pantai things.
Something yang dekatkan kami untuk spent our time together adalah dengan pergi ke sana.
Even though not clear and beautiful enough as pantai-pantai yang lain.
But this is it.
Our happiness.

And si Ziqa, Apiz and Anas... since mereka kecik.
Dah expose dengan alla this.
So, mereka dan pantai memenag tak dapat dipisahkan.
If antara pergi shopping and pantai.
Mereka first priority adalah pantai.
Sebab that remind them to their beloved father.
Al-fatihah.

I pray one day.
I will bring them to pantai alone.
With those three kiddos and we have fun.
Mampu ke masalahnya?
Hhahhahahha....

Anyway, this picture below are the latest update about them and pantai.
So happy.
So cool.


My younger sister terpaksa make this small pool for si Anas.
So that he will play together with their sister and brother.
Because, it's more safe.
= )

Friday, December 09, 2016

Janda baik: D river resort

Assalamualaikum,

When my friend said to come join her and family to Janda Baik.
It's like a flash back to my Form 5, English literature novel. It's about Janda Baik duh.
Normal stories about how harmonize their communities are.
Boring.
Never mind.
Disebabkan ianya FOC and i have no planning yet, I just follow....
= )

Packing my bag and i meet her at Rawang.
Along journey, i can seen lots of home-stay and resort available here.
So, if korang tersesat or what.
Don't worry about nak tidur mana nanti.
Prepare your some money, and choose wisely.
If ada berani lebih, gi la tumpang kat perkampungan orang asli nun.
They seem friendly.

Internet connection are very bad at here.
Sorry to say that.
Sempat sesat because lost of GPS configured.
Just bertumpu pada any signboard yang ada.
Nasib sampai.

There, can you see a small river. I think i should bring a pelampung next time.
So that i can do a river tubing!
This is under some persatuan actually.
And i berkesempatan join la mana-mana acara sukaneka yang ada.
Even tak menang anything, because they cheated. 
LOL. Geram gila.
Anhway, just play and and have fun.
Tak amik hati pon.

And also, menyibuk in their preparation meals.
Tak berani nak tunjuk bakat. Just setakat tukang masak Sardin jer.
Hahahhah...
Mingle around.
And layan si Nana... that cutest baby.

If you're lucky enough, some local will introduce you with their original madu.
I bought two bottle.
Discount until RM 20.00 per bottle.
Not sure what kind of madu it is.
And don't forget to taste the sarang also.
Sour a bit.

Most importantly, main air kat that river!
Awesome but very cold...
Cannot tahan.

And Sunday morning after breakfast, we gerak balik KL.

Art stone by me.

Thursday, December 08, 2016

Buy a brain


Assalamualaikum,

These three four days memang sedikit memenatkan.
Bukan sedikit, banyak actually.
Sebab tu tak sempat nak update my blog.
Sorry guys.

I'm on-call last weekend. Rezeki Allah bagi, busy dengan rib injuries case.
And that really dried out my energy.
Habis my half sandwich carbo lunch.
Until sampai satu tahap, when everyone busy watching Extravaganza final episode that Sunday night,
I sedap-sedap take a nap.
I really need it.

Nasib on Monday, boleh balik on time.
So, i can rest my mind.
Take more sleep too.

But not my luck i think when on esoknya at the end of that night case.
Your team member not take a right responsibilities.
A team yang not really understood your limit.
Together with your others colleague.
Memang rasa nak tumbuk muka orang.

I'm not sure if because i'm junior and their senior.
I don't freaking care!
If you're my super senior...
Why when i'm in your job position, i can settle down everything completely.
And when it's your turn.
You can't.
Why do you do this to me.
To us?
Why?

Didn't you know that i'm tired. Really tired.
I need catch up my Asar before Magrib.
My bit lunch before dinner.
I'm not robot.
Please, buy a brain.
Buy also some manners.
You need that.

I think i'm in angry zone.
I need to calm myself first.
Bye.

Wednesday, December 07, 2016

KSRP 2016:Dinner time

Assalamualaikum,

On December 2nd, KSRP ada buat dinner kat Convention Centre for the first time.
Celebrating their 40th years of anniversaries.
Likes half of me duh.
LOL.

At first, tak applied pon. And suddenly, my colleague asked untuk join sama this event.
Ticket still available she said.
Then, terus sent email and positive feedback.

So, as i still off on that Monday.
Pergilah ke KLCC, Tower 1. Nak collected ticket on behalf mereka sekali.
And after lepas screening part, boleh sesat sampai tingkat 42.
Alang-alang dah sesat, jejalan lah sekali kan.
Very nice view i can said.
Nampak la bridge semua. Hohohooo...Like i cares?
After boring, start la buat muka innocent plus cute sebab nak mintak tolong.
Nasib jumpa akak baik hati tolong dan cilok masuk staff area sampai la gi tempat collect ticket.
Mekasih bebanyak la hakak oi.

Theme untuk that dinner adalah black, red and gold.
So, i pick gold.
And mix and match with anything yang ada dalam simpanan harta karunku.
Tak dernya la den nak sewa baju kelip-kelip bagai.
Tak payah membazir.
Baju kahwin pon belum tentu sewa, i will make sure suh my partner yang jahit. Homemade, hengkau.
Bior dia rasa. Hahhaha, Sanggup ker?


BTW. Untuk memastikan malam tu berjalan lancar.
I volunteer myself lah untuk stay back a night before until 10pm untuk buat case.
Fuh.
And at the end, petang that day... dapatlah balik sharp 06.00 pm.
Yahoo!

Siap-siap and terus gerak. Nak predict apa kan jem kat KL nih...
Gerak awai la.
Pastu, rupanya door tak bukak lagi. Hampeh.
Nasib diorang ada sediakan air.
Alhamdulillah.
Dapat gak doorgift time waiting, flask hitam. Ni i like.

Lastly, diorang bukak jugak akhirnya main entrance,
Pastu ada part red carpet and catwalk. Haila. Rasanyalah kan, i'm the one categories yang let make a way, i don't care with your camera on roll.
I need to walk fast and furious guys,
Because i need to book the table first, so please.
... Obviously me.

As the result, dapatlah ku rembat meja betul-betul depan stage!
If me alone, i will reserve meja paling hujung. Dekat dengan all the foods.
Senang.
But as promises, diorang nak enjoy performance...nak telek jerawat ke tak si penyanyi nanti.
Hamek korang hadaplah.

MC nya ialah si Nabil and si bambam. Sorry dude, I donno your name.
But frankly speaking, both of you make my day.
Thank you.

Kemuncaknya adalah after all speeches and videos, mereka jemput untuk menjamah makanan.
Oh, my... rasa nak nangis.
How lapar i'm.
Okay, sambil-sambil makan... Ella and Man Bai started their singing.
And some of lucky draw.
Enjoying this, but i still ulang alik ambil makanan.
Don't blame me, i prefer real foods.

Plain nasik to western steak to japanese meals, i tried all.
All dessert i pick. My favorite.
Also their fruits.
Together some tea tarik bagi penambah.
Only one i avoid that night. Salad.
You're in wrong event lah.

And at the end, six plates make my tummy full duh.
Awesome.
Maybe that the first round, so... when i think to go for the second round.
Man bai tetiba nyanyi dekat area our meja.
Dah kena layan karenah bebudak nih.
Apa ke susah la diorang nih, if nak bergambo, gi jelah.
So, lastly i make my own decision. I stand up and be a penyibuk orang nak tangkap gamba dengan dia.
Hhahha... Gilo. Sorry guys.

So, here we are yang dapat hadir on behalf of our department. Semua senyum kembang-kembang. Stay gojes guys.
Anyway, please ignore my selendang yang dah sengat sana sini. situ tuh.
So, it's a wrap!
Bye.

Thursday, December 01, 2016

Islamic practice: My wife, I'm sorry

Assalamualaikum.

We’re talking about someone who you’re ideally going to spend the rest of your life with. \
Don’t make this decision based on momentary emotions and desires…have foresight. 
Think about the little things, 
The big things, and everything in between before giving your word. 
Can you honestly see yourself with this person in all details of your life? 
Are they going to help you and your future children prepare for your akhira,
Or are they going to undermine your ibada? 


"MY WIFE, I AM SORRY"
He woke up in the morning and found her praying. He heard her praying for him.He stared at her. It has been a long time since he
has seen her praying. For the past few months, they have been arguing. Last night, they had a nasty fight.He went to the kitchen in a hurry to prepare himself breakfast.

These past days, she hasn't been cooking for him. Shock on him. He found breakfast already set at the table. He ate. He went back to the bedroom, to prepare for a shower. She left the shower. "Good morning. Have a blessed day" she said as she entered the bedroom and he left for the bathroom. After his shower, all dressed up for work; he found his wife at the kitchen, eating breakfast in peace. She was looking at some funny videos on her phone and giggling. He looked at her then walked out the door. The last look he had of her before he left was of her at peace.
That last look disturbed him. This is not how she should be. This is not how she has been. He has been hurting her, she has recently found out that he has been flirting with other women, he has cheated once and used money meant for their family on other women. She should be angry.Her peaceful demeanor disturbed him.
Evening came. He went home and met his peaceful wife again. She was cooking and laughing with their children. She had come from work two hours ago.The dinner was enjoyable. Good food, she having warm conversations with the children. He as the father felt left out. His wife and children seemed to be having fun despite him hurting them.
After dinner, as she washed the dishes and the children had gone to bed. He approached her.
"Are you OK?" he asked her.
"I am more than OK. I am blessed "She answered.
"Are you not mad at me? After all that I am doing and have done wrong?" he asked.
She placed the washed plate in the rack then looked at him and said, "I asked myself, what is the most important relationship in my
life? The one I have with you or the one with God? And I realized it is the one with God. I live for God, not for you. Marrying you was a blessing but it is not all there is in life. God has blessed me with life and I will not waste it crying because of the hurt you cause me to feel"
She picked up a dirty glass and began washing it. "I realized I had given you too much power... Yes, you are my husband, the closest human being in my life and the human being I love the most; but you are not God. You have failed me but God never fails me. I will not let you ruin my joy, my peace and my progress. You break our marriage if you want to, but I will hold on to God. And as I hold on to God, I will be full of joy despite what you do" She said rinsing the glass.
She looked at him and continued, "When you hurt me and disrespected me, I realized I was acting out like a woman who has no God. I got mad and hurled insults, I wanted to revenge and I allowed you to mess me day after day. My performance at work went down, I talked less to our children, I became bitter to the children, I felt sorry for myself, I developed ulcers. And then I realized, I have God, I shouldn't act like someone with no relationship with God. Why should I be hopeless yet God is with me? I had focused so much on you that I forgot about God. When you found me, I had God. We dated and got married and I let everything be about you because I wanted to make our marriage work. Our marriage became the idol I worship instead of the blessing I have in God. Our marriage is failing apart because of you but my relationship with God is still intact"
She scrubbed the pot.
"You have chosen to abandon our marriage but that doesn't mean my whole world has collapsed. I will still continue being a good mother to our children. They will never say the problems between mom and dad, made mom a monster. You do as you please with other women, I will raise our children."
She looked at him and told him, "Do I hate you? No, it will be a lie to say I hate you. You are the man I married, the one I vowed to, the one I love"
Tears fell down her cheeks. She wiped them. "I can't just cancel all the years we have been together. The Quran as well as the Bible asks us to love our enemies. If I am able to love my enemies, surely I can still love you despite all you have done. I am angry and disappointed, but I have taken my power back. I live for God who has exceedingly blessed me, not for you and the pain you cause"
She wiped her wet hands, took the apron from her body and told him, "In my peace, I am planning on where the children and
I will move to. Since you have chosen to have an affair, you have shown clearly that you don't need us. So we will not make your life uncomfortable by forcing you to live with us. You need to be able to bring the woman you are cheating with to your own house. I am working on something. I came into this house in peace and I will leave in peace. You will not kill my smile and shine"
She walked to the bedroom. Minutes later. He followed her to the
bedroom. He found her peacefully asleep.He nudged her. He woke her up and said,
"Please don't go, don't move out. I will hurt you no more, I will cheat no more. I am not OK. I want the peace you have. I want to be the kind of husband you are as a wife."
Since that day, he has been a reformed man. No more affairs, no
more hurting her, no flirting with other women, or endless fights. She didn't move out. She and the children stayed. He submitted to God and learned how to be a good husband, Love is powerful enough to humble the most proud ....... I don't know what you are experiencing this morning but my prayer is ,may you enjoy over whatever you are going through and behold, God is going to rain everlasting peace and freedom upon your life...Amen.
Kindly SHARE this to bless someone out there.
*Happily married to my friends, Mozir. He going to get married tomorrow. Pray him the best*